This is an old post when I wrote diary-like entries during my first pregnancy when I found myself alone with not even doctors who understood what might happen to me. One doctor suggested I ought to be feeling better (which I most certainly was not) but what an odd, uninformed thing to say! For the most recent pregnancy diaries from pregnancy number two and three see my Pregnancy and Fibromyalgia resources page.
As someone who has struggled with pain and fatigue for a while now, I am rather in tune with my body, so I’m super aware of what is happening and changing right now.
Yes, the fatigue is the biggest thing – I was in bed from 9.30pm – 8am this morning (not sleeping the whole time between my bladder, neck and dog) but I still didn’t want to get up. But I have been having the most odd, most vivid dreams ever. They are so strange!
My breasts are always uncomfortable and my neck has been causing some trouble. My lower back and abdomen seem to be working overtime and my stomach is almost always bloated. It is all manageable, except when I feel all of these things all at once, then I just want to curl up in the corner and sleep the next several months away! I think it would help to have someone to share these things with.
In my quest to feel normal this morning, I got myself a nice hot vanilla “latte” from Muffin Break to sit at my desk with and (do my best to) work. The only change from “normal” is that it has to be accompanied by my Shapes. Shapes are my new go-to when I need food in my stomach quickly.
Fuel has always been an issue for me, but it has become a curious issue recently. I have gone off my old favourites, fruit and vegetables, and I need carbs every two hours. My stomach is unforgiving if I don’t eat very regularly.
I also can’t stop thinking about baby. Despite it all, I am so curious to see and touch her/him. I am also very curious about what is happening to both of us right now and will come in the next few months. But all my research has to be done in secret, which makes it less fun. My only book, What to Expect When You’re Expecting, is hidden in a brown paper bag in my wardrobe! It’s like my own precious little secret 🙂