Sick

There’s nothing like being very unwell to shake you out of complacency (or avoidance?!)

I knew I was struggling. It seemed like I had things in place to look after myself.

This is what it is to have a baby and work, I told myself. That I ought to be able to work four shorter days, take care of the baby, support the husband as he worked rotating shifts -fortnightly nightshift (working 830pm-6am, sleeping during the morning and an afternoon nap) and day (this means he’s gone 630am-6pm) shifts.

Sitting alone in the fast dimming edge of a day I spent unable to stand for more than a few minutes at time, I recall the rheumatologist I saw recently tell me it IS a lot. These things plus constant pain and exhaustion.

But what can I really do? These things can’t change too much.

I’m going to keep working on my immune system – high dose olive leaf, pro biotics (my GP recommended I take permanently) and maximising healthy foods using my smoothie maker. And rest more!

I will resign from the job that isn’t working and look for something more suitable.

My new physio is all about gradually increasing exercise, as if going from 20-40 minutes per day of walking toward an hour will decrease my pain – I’ve done the pushing myself for more and know the tightness and pain in my glutes, lower back and legs aren’t worth it. But I do think I need to build the Pilate’s back in, that really helps with my core, back and neck.

I’m also continuing to follow the mind/body connection thread in my reading.

It’s all a puzzle and I don’t think I’m doing too badly.

Gentle hugs, hoping for better news soon.

Sick Baby

The best thing to do when one has not slept much for two nights and their baby has a snuffly nose and chesty cough is to prop themselves up on the couch with baby on their chest.
My boy has been struggling with a small cold and has been preferring to sleep on his stomach, but this is vehemently warned against by all of the health professionals, so I’ve been allowing him to sleep on his tummy during the day – while I can supervise.
Snuggling on the couch when we’re both tired and I’m rather sore from the lack of sleep is delicious. Getting to look at and smell my precious boy is a rather large bonus!