Week 31

Giant…I feel like a giant! I don’t know how I have nine more weeks in which to grow!

Baby likes to keep to the right, which is putting considerable strain on my right, mid-back. He is also moving a lot, which can hurt, especially when he gets my ribs with those tiny feet!

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I am feeling a real urge to get his room ready and his things prepared. I am very uncomfortable with the fact that we are not ready…even though I know we have some time.

I am getting very tired and sore. The pain is making it hard to sleep. My husband has been excellent with firm massages to free up my lower back, but I am experiencing pain in my back almost constantly. When I can manage a few hours in a row of sleep, I feel so much better for it the next day. So there’s my survival goal when baby comes – do everything I can to maximize my chances of three hour blocks!

In amongst all of the pain and fatigue and angst, there is also this pervading sense of joy. This is my tiny baby. My son. When he kicks at me, with one foot at a time, and I can distinguish it is one little limb, I experience such a surge of peace and happiness. I imagine what it will be like to see his baby feet. I imagine what it will be like to get to hold him on the outside, where it will be far more comfortable!

It’s getting scary and it’s getting exciting. It’s a pretty profound, life-changing experience.

This is a pregnancy diary from my first pregnancy in 2013/14. For my most recent pregnancy diaries and my pregnancy resources see here.

28 Weeks and a Wedding

The 28th week has ticked over! In fact, tomorrow I am 29 weeks! Time has started to blur past.

My wedding came and went just over a week ago, the day, like the preparation, whizzed by. It was a whole lot of heat, fatigue, fun and love. I was more focused on, and more excited about, the baby. I also didn’t think I was a wedding person. But it was the most beautiful day. There is nothing in the world like telling the love of your life that you will spend forever loving them in front of your friends and family.

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I have the most precious memories from this day. The first was walking down the aisle toward my love. He looked gorgeous and I just couldn’t believe I was there, getting to marry him.

The photo shoot was exhausting in the heat, but it was also a fun time. We got some beautiful shots. It was really fun to play model for a day!

Unfortunately I was well and truly out of energy by the time we arrived to the reception. After our entrance and the cutting of the cake, we had the speeches. Wow. I was particularly touched by my mother-in-law’s speech. My sister, father and brother-in-law gave great speeches also.

But the one that took my breath away (and nearly made me cry in public, from which I fear I wouldn’t have stopped being the exhausted, pregnant woman that I am) was my husband’s speech. I haven’t the words to describe how much I love him or how much I appreciated his precious words to me. I stole his notes for my memory box!

We have been told how much people enjoyed our wedding, there was a lot of dancing! So, the last hours of the wedding were characterized by some excellent dancing. Not mine, besides being tired, it was really hard to dance in the big, heavy dress! Our first dance didn’t go as practiced, as it was too hard to do the turns with the train. I am already planning an easier, shorter dress for our first anniversary so that we can recreate that dance properly – it was to Celine Dion’s If That’s What it Takes, sung by my brother! That was pretty special.

And then, all of a sudden, it was done. We are married! We are now making our home together, carrying on as usual and preparing for our baby to join us in the next 10-14 weeks!

I am supposed to be working and organizing a whole heap of things, but between the pain (hips, lower back, glutes, neck), the fatigue and the daydreaming of what my baby will be like, I haven’t done as much as I’d like yet.

This is a pregnancy diary from my first pregnancy in 2013/14. For my most recent pregnancy diaries and my pregnancy resources see here.